Howdy, friend. *smile* I feel deeply sorry for anyone who still checks and reads my blog after all my inconsistency. It’s not that I don’t like blogging or don’t have anything to blog about, I just can’t seem to ever get to it. With finishing up high-school priorities change. But tonight I need a productive break from the norm–hence blogging.
Lately (for close to two months now?), I’ve been going hard at doing the right things, maximizing my time, being really disciplined, and generally making every single second count. It’s been great and I’ve gotten so much accomplished Spiritually, academically, around my home, and etc. But I have been left feeling burnt out and like I can’t do it anymore. I simply am not enough. Weary.
I am so thankful to serve a God I can bring everything to–every burden, every care. After I poured my heart out to Him and finally stopped long enough to listen to Him, He brought great encouragement to my heart. I thought I’d share just a few of the thoughts and verses He brought to mind–nothing really structured or profound. I encourage you to really read the Scripture passages instead of just skimming them over.
He reminded me that He is my Shepherd.
For thus saith the Lord GOD: Behold, I, even I will both search my sheep, and seek them out.
As a shepherd seeketh out his flock in the day that he is among his sheep that are scattered; so will I seek out my sheep, and will deliver them out of all places where they have been scattered in the cloudy and dark day.
I will feed them in a good pasture, and upon the high mountains of Israel shall their fold be: there shall they lie in a good fold, and in a fat pasture shall they feed upon the mountains of Israel.
I will feed my flock, and I will cause them to lie down, saith the Lord God.
I will seek that which was lost, and bring again that which was driven away, and will bind up that which was broken, and will strengthen that which was sick: but I will destroy the fat and the strong; I will feed them with judgment. (Ezekiel 34:11-16
There is something so indescribably comforting as seeing Jesus as my precious Shepherd. I feel like a lamb–completely and utterly helpless. Prone to wander. So weak. This verse in Isaiah is so precious to me:
He shall feed His flock like a shepherd: He shall gather the lambs with His arm, and carry them in His bosom, and shall gently lead those that are with young. (Isaiah 40:11)
Oh how I want so much to just be carried in the arms of my Shepherd, Yeshua! He is the God that feeds, carries, and gently leads those who are weak and broken. Oh indeed, Jesus, will You not carry me?
The LORD is my Shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: He leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul… (Psalm 23:1-3a)
Oh the riches of His Word! I cannot begin to describe the depth of what the passages mean to me or how I have prayed and prayed them back to God. How beautiful to lie down in green pastures, and to be led by still waters? He is the restorer of my soul…and how my soul needs restoring right now. When I see Who my Shepherd is, I truly want nothing but Him.
Just one more and I’ll close for tonight–
Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me; for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls.
For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light. (Matt 11:28-30)
He offers rest for the weary, for the heavy laden. Yep, that’s me. Does His yoke not sound wonderfully beautiful? Does not your heart cry within you “Lord, let me take up Your yoke!?”
Rest well, friend. I know I will tonight. I look forward to tomorrow for I am carried in the arms of my Shepherd. He feeds me. He is so understanding, and listens to my desperate cries. He strengthens me in my weakness. He restores my soul. He rescues me.
And you know what? It makes me love Him all the more.
Resting in Him,